Saturday, January 1, 2011

Hello 2011......

Well here I am once again writing about my life......A wonderful way to express things with no rules or restrictions.......2 years ago I started this blog and I use to write about everything I even used display my poetry....


So now im back....and ive erased all of the old writings and im starting fresh.


Last night I brought in the New Year with my daughter.....I kissed her forehead as the countdown began. Love..true love. The right way for me to bring it in. A mother. I fell asleep....and woke up in the middle of the night and started thinking about the things that bothered me in my "last situation".....I was pissed that i was awaken to those thoughts....but then i realized they werent goin to ho anywere untill i truly let them go.


                                           .....letting go...........


And now as im sitting here I realize that all that ive been through shall not be in vain.....and becoming a prisoner of emotions is no longer an option. Forgive and let live.


I want to share this poem that I wrote about 2 years ago about my daughter....my miracle....my life.


"My Shadow"






Five and half years ago I took a walk


I simply had know idea where I was going


but I knew I had to go.






I mean I wasnt prepared for what was to come....


I tried to eat right, think right, do right


just simply be right before I was to step out onto the


pavement.






My eyes stayed a lil weak from lack of sleep from thoughts


of this walk


but again


there was no turning back






The day came


my stomach tightenend and my heart fluttered as I


went on to take my first steps


where i could only survive by natural instinct






I wouldnt have guessed this walk would have took hours upon hours


and i was so focused on completing the journeyI never once thought looking down would change my life forever...


and then i heard a voice say


look.






I mean I was sweating, tired, out of breath


holding on for dear life and then i heard the voice say again


..................look.






and so I got myself up enough


strength to look down


and there it was


in full form


.........My Shadow


it was me, blackness......formed


and out poured light


.........My Shadow


which was with me this whole time


on my walk


felt what i felt


cause it was


.........My Shadow






The complete outline of what I put in


It


and what I will continue to put in


It






You see im never alone


even when I think so


Even when there is no light to make it


apparent my shadows there






My Shadow will still walk the earth


even when I cease to be


I call My Shadow KALIAA


cause she was once in me.










(I wrote this poem last night and was inspired to write it as i was watching my daughter Kaliaa sleep.


-I gave natural birth to my daughter 5 and half years ago, I was in labor with my daughter for 24 hours and after i delivered her i had some life threatning things happen, I am still here though and so is she. She is definantely my blessing and I am hers.)










Copywright 2008 Lala's Poetry

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